As we rocked, I stroked and kissed her hair and talked to her. I told her how very happy I am to be her mommy and how lucky I am to have her. How she is my best little girl and I love her so, so much. I breathed in her sweet baby smell and felt tears coming to my eyes.
As we continued to rock, I thought about the fact that at this time, four years ago, I didn't think I would ever get to be a mother. My world seemed extremely bleak, and I was sad and angry most of the time.
Then, I thought about the fact that at this time, three years ago, I was happily pregnant, and enjoying a pretty easy pregnancy (sciatica and swelling aside), which would be followed by a fast and easy delivery.
May 2008: Happily celebrating my birthday and Mother's Day
Still in the "cute" pregnant stage. The "HUGE" pregnant stage was still to come!
Then, I thought, how I wish I could go back in time and tell the sad woman I was four years ago to have faith--that the hard part was almost over, that she was going to be a mother and soon, and that her daughter would be the most beautiful, sweet baby who is growing into a strong, smart, independent, funny little girl who makes her proud everyday.
Since she was riding a horse, she HAD to wear a cowgirl hat!
My little girl's growing up so fast. But she's still my baby!
S with her pal Zoe at Sea World of Texas
I'm so blessed. So lucky. Every day is Mother's Day to me.
Your daughter is just gorgeous! And you were so gorgeous pregnant!
ReplyDeleteThanks Mona! She looked like my husband's mini-me for the first year of her life, but now she looks a lot like I did at her age, albeit with lots more hair. (I was bald till 2.) As I mentioned in the picture caption, this is how I looked in May. S was born at the end of August, so by July, I was no longer looking pretty and cutely pregnant...beached whale with cankles was more like it. Notice I didn't post those pictures! :)
ReplyDeleteThe miracle of motherhood is truly amazing and it really should be recognized and celebrated everyday!
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